Monday, February 14, 2011

 where love is at

Webster's defines it this way:  

to have a profoundly tender, passionate affection for

Love.


Today is pretty much the day that love finds itself written about, verbalized, and thought of in varying connotations.


There have been some Valentine's Days in my life when I have had expectations of flowers, maybe a card - sugary delights in one form or another.

I have wanted time with my husband in quantities that he may or may not have been able to conveniently give.



When I think about that definition 

...and those expectations
  
...and the marketing of all things fluffy and romanticized around me


it all just seems... shallow.



Don't misunderstand. Cards? YES! A favorite for sure.


Candy, 
    cuddling, 
       flowers, 
          sweetness, 
              pink, 
                 red, 
                    hearts, 
                      pretties, 
                         kisses,
                           hugs, 
                              sweet nothings?


Check "yes please" on all. Multiple times. 

And yet...

Perhaps it's the stage of life we find ourselves in.


Perhaps the necessity of facing end of life issues.


Perhaps just another step in the journey that God is guiding me through.


But this Valentine's Day I am seeing a completely different definition of all things LOVE.

What is it?

It  is  

Patient...    like calmly waiting on God's timing. Not forcing some one else to be something they aren't. Not trying to rush a process that only God can orchestrate. Patient.


Kind...    such a simple word, but with remarkable meaning. We talk about how important it is to be kind to others. We teach our kids to be kind to teachers, other kids, people in authority. Great, really. But do we practice this in our own homes, with our own spouses, in every day life? Those mundane moments when we are tired, hungry, overwhelmed, maybe even hormonal and grumpy? Kind.

It is not

Jealous...  like wondering what our spouse is thinking as that beautiful woman walks by. We know that God created beauty - and beauty can be appreciated, and LOVE says "I am secure in who God made me to be and I am secure in our love".  Love also is not jealous of their time. Love says, "Do you have an opportunity to love? To give? To bless some one or something other than me? Than do it! Do it with JOY and do it with my blessing and whole hearted support!" (Can I just say, these two things are so hard for me? This part of defining love always gets me...)

Boastful...  love doesn't look for all of the possible ways to make yourself look good. Quite the opposite.


Rude... snarky remarks, "teasing"... tearing down. Love isn't that. It's not even close to that.

It does not

Demand its own way...  haughty, coercing, manipulating - demanding. When we do these things, we are not loving.

Keep a record of being wronged...   no matter what. That means we don't throw it into their face every time we think they need to be knocked down a notch or two. "Well, you did this - therefore, I am entitled to that...  No. No record of wrongs.


It never gives up... like never ever. It can't. Because it is God and God is it, and God has placed THIS LOVE in our hearts.


Never loses faith, is always HOPEFUL, and endures through every circumstance.

Every circumstance! Do you get that? It's not fluffy and romanticized. 

It is real, tough, resilient, unyielding. 

You know that Crowder song -  "How He Loves?" To me that song paints one of the mot brilliant picture of this unyielding, true love. Imagine:

"Loves like a hurricane, I am the tree, bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy"


We can unleash love that strong!


It is "I will love you even though I don't like you right now"


It is "I will lay down my ideas/rights/expectations for you"


It is holding one another through the valley of the shadow


It is lifting a glass of water to their lips in sickness

It is taking care of more than your usual share of responsibilities so that they can get rest 




Tonight, on Valentines Day, I won't be seeing my sweetie until 11:00. I will likely be completely out (nearly comatose) - asleep after a long day, and he will be even more exhausted.


And truly, it is one of the most loving Valentines Days in my life to date.


Because he is out there working 8 hours to provide for our family. Out of love. And I finally get that.

And then he will be studying, picking boys up, settling them at home with his mom, and then going to classes, while I volunteer. All for us. All from love.


And Webster - well, he kind of got it right. Love is profoundly tender. It can result in passion - for sure. It is affectionate in nature.


But I'm standing on the true definition. The definitions that daily challenge me. Stare me in the eye and show me how weak I am - but how dignified and strong I can be if I follow that love. 

Right now, today, love is hearing about my family, 500 miles away from me, each taking turns to stand vigil by my grandma in her last days.


Exhausted, busy, sad, at times frustrated,


But still spoon feeding, patting, cleaning, speaking softly to an almost 90 year old woman who has spent hours loving each of us.


That's where it is at. 

Today, for me, love is in a small hospice room, 

behind a mop, 

and in a class room.

6 comments:

Anne Elizabeth said...

Excellent post!

Kristen said...

Oh Wendi, this is so beautiful. Do you ever get tired of hearing about how lovely your thoughts put into words are? Even in what might seem like a simple blog post, you hold such strong ability to teach.

Happy Valentine's Day!

Hayley said...

I needed this. . .

Can't believe how quickly I can lose focus. . .

I had my priorities straight last night, but somehow, between cancelled date night, sick children, overtime, a couple huge decisions and errands, and I'm upside down again.

Love is not snarky! (whew, I needed that!)

My man is walking in sometime after midnight. I'll smile and think of you! :-)

Love you dear friend.

The Sneaky Mommy said...

Love this!
Happy Valentine's Day!
Crowder's song is one of my favorites.

Praying for your family as you anticipate your grandma being joined with her Savior! My 96 year old grandma is very much longing for that day!

Penny said...

Oh, Wendi. This is so true and so beautiful.

Amy@My Front Porch said...

Wendi -- I LOVE this! It's scary how closely your thoughts mirrored my own this Valentine's Day. I was literally just thinking last night how this is one of the most blessed, loving Valentine's Days I've ever had and do you know what I did? I spent my morning in the doctor's office with my youngest getting shots and my afternoon caring for a toddler with a fever. My hubby didn't get home until 7:30 and instead of the romantic meal I wanted to make, we ordered pizza. When we first got married, I would've probably been disappointed, but instead my heart was just overflowing--because I've learned a few things about love in the past 6 years. So anyway...all that to say, I loved this post ;)