Thursday, October 14, 2010

 Today he's one

Malachi,

Today you are one year old.

Today I look at you and I squint hard, trying to remember something that seems veiled and dream like; our family before you.


There was a time when I was not your momma, but I think in my heart of hearts I've always been your momma.

You were always that finishing puzzle piece to this family and I was always the momma still waiting, even when I didn't know it.

There was a time when I was not a mom at all. And yet in my heart of hearts the longing to be this nurturer, this vessel to give life, was almost tangible.

You have given life to the dreams of my heart.

Your air filled lungs and your beating heart - they are God's love letters.

Love letters that give hope to arms that once ached and an entire being that once grieved the loss of life.



Look at you! You have my chin and the shape of my eyes!
Today I celebrate you.

Sweetness.

Life.

Beauty.

A will completely your own.

My first year mothering you has been healing, stretching, growing, loving.

Thank you for who you are. You are a part of some thing wonderful that God is doing.

I love you.

16 comments:

Elizabeth Mahlou said...

Aw, what a darling! Happy birthday to him.

BaronessBlack said...

Happy Birthday! Hope it's a great day for everyone!

Katarina said...

Happy Birthday! A year already, wow!

Anne Elizabeth said...

What a sweet post! Happy Birthday. Fabulous pictures!!!

sara said...

I can not believe he is a year already!! your mama's heart shines through in this post...so sweet and full!

Happy Birthday to your boy!

Sarah M. said...

Wonderful pics! Thanks for sharing!

Kristin said...

I love these pictures, especially the last one with the hat. LOVE LOVE LOVE IT!!!!

Dora said...

Wendi, God has blessed you beyond measure, not only with your family, but with words, I get tears in my eyes every time I read your posts. Bless you and thank God for you!

Sarah@Life in the Parsonage said...

I can't believe he's a year old already. Happy Birthday sweet boy! And to his momma too! :)

Megan said...

You know what they call babies who are born after babies who God takes home? Rainbow babies! Because rainbows always come after a storm. All of your boys are your rainbows Wendi! And Malachi definatly added even more "miracle" to your beautiful life!

Happy Birthday little messenger from God!~

une autre mère said...

So so sweet! What an adorable little boy. Those pictures are priceless and I love how words flow so freely from your heart. Beautiful. Happy Birthday, Malachi!

Anonymous said...

So glad for our sweet boy. I hope that you had a fun day. We did.

The Sneaky Mommy said...

Absolutely stunning pictures of that handsome little boy! Happy Birthday, Malachi! You are blessed with a wonderful mama!

BARBIE said...

What a beautiful boy! Happy Birthday to your precious on!

izzy said...

Awww..such a sweet post. Your kid is really gorgeous! Happy birthday young man! <3

Lindsay said...

Beautiful. simply beautiful.

a messenger for God for sure!