Saturday, May 8, 2010

 This thing called motherhood...

I started thinking about it when I was very young.

In fact, I can't really remember a time that I didn't dream of one day

being a mommy.

I played with my dolls when I was a little 4 year old. 

Rocking my "babies" and pretending that they were real.

I started to babysit when I was a young 11.

I figured it was pretty much what motherhood would be like one day.

Wow did I have alot to learn.

Playing with dolls is a fun little fancy for a small girl.

Babysitting provides a small glimpse into the responsibility of parenting.

But nothing...


 could have prepared me for the real thing.

Nobody told me that being a mom would show me all of the best and worst things about myself.
Nobody could have prepared me for the joy,
the guilt,
the awe,
the sleep deprivation,
the love,
the days when I wanted to quit,
the nights when I would've given anything near and dear to me for three or four consecutive hours of sleep,
the  heartbreak,
the excitement...
...and how insanely celebratory I would be over a three year old wearing undies all day and all night (perhaps it is not so much the wearing as the keeping them dry - but oh so celebratory).

Previous to this mommy-ing I thought I knew good
I thought I had a pretty decent idea of the best that life had to offer.
But I did not. 

Not until now.
Not until them.
Not until this.


This is bigger than me.
It is more difficult than anything I have ever done in my life.
It takes strength I don't posses.
It  holds rewards I don't deserve.

It's no wonder it was designed, created, and given by God Himself.

Happy Mother's Day weekend!


Katarina said...

Happy Mother's Day weekend to you too! Hope it is filled with all the joy of mothering!

zookeeperjess said...

Happy Mother's Day to you! Your post is SO true!

Adorable picture!!

~beautyandjoy~ said...

Exactly, exactly, exactly.

And then that photo - oh my goodness that is pure beauty. All their little expressions are so so precious.


Rach@In His Hands said...

That was me, too, rocking dolls and babysitting and daydreaming...
and now on my first Mother's Day with my son, I can say how truly beautiful and challenging the gift of motherhood is.
Happy Mother's Day to you, Wendi!

Mama Belle said...

I love this post and so needed to read it this morning.

Happy Mother's Day!

une autre mère said...

Beautiful post. So well said! And that picture of your boys is darling! :)

Anne Elizabeth said...

I LOVE that picture! Happy Mother's Day to you:)

Amy@My Front Porch said...

I couldn't have said it better myself. Happy Mother's Day :)

Anonymous said...

As always, BEAUTIFUL!

Heather of the EO said...

Oh yes, sweet Mama. Oh YES.

And the still my heart! Those boys!

Kari Bergman said...

I don't usually find a blog 'worth' reading for more than a minute, if that. Your is... incredible! I have never 'followed' a strangers blog either but don't want to loose yours. You have encouraged my faith in God as I can relate all too well to the things in your life. Thank you. -kari Bergman

Leslie said...

I love your heart an awful awful lot.

Chelle said...

What Leslie, and Misha said.

You are one beautiful + amazing Mama, my friend.

Noah and Ryders Mommy said...

beautiful post, Wendi, and such a beautiful Mother you are. Those boys are so lucky to have you as a Mom and example in what to look for someday and how to treat reading your posts