I'm renaming him "Murphy"

When our week with K in the hospital was coming to an end, with a predominantly unsuccessful result in what we had hoped to accomplish, we offhandedly joked that he would likely have the seizure once we got home. You know where this is going don't you? Indeed, as Murphy's law would have it, we spent 5 days in the hospital trying all kinds of things to cause him to have a seizure so that we could capture it on EEG and video monitoring - during which time he did not as much as sneeze for us, but in the two days that we have been home he has had 3 - yes THREE - seizure type episodes. At this point I am not really sure what is going on. If he didn't respond to the knowledgeable doctor's efforts in trying to induce a seizure it may be that these are not seizures after all. I do not know if they are hurting him. I do not know what in the world is bringing them on. I do not know when the next one will occur. I do not know if he just has a longer reaction time and he is now responding to everything we tried while he was in the hospital. I do not know if his currant medication is doing anything for him. I wonder if we are missing something. I am going over each episode in my mind and searching for clues. I am trying to deny the discouragement that is creeping up. I am tired and frustrated and hoping. Hoping for something... some clue...some answers..... And in the midst of it God is showing me his sovereignty. I am struggling with how little control I have over the situation, but HE is showing me that I don't need to be in control of it. Because He is and He knows... Would you join me in prayer for this precious little guy who has so stolen my heart?I love him so.