Monday, October 12, 2009

 Just another day in the life...

I'm writing this from my comfy warm home with two sweet little boys whom I missed like crazy while I was at the hospital for 21 hours over the weekend. And I am still very pregnant... Yes, they sent me home at 6-7 centimeters.... :) My life is crazy ya'll, it's not normal. -But that's not really new news now is it? I got a great night of rest in my own bed and I think Malachi just might have turned in the night. I can't be sure - I just know that I awoke at one point with the strangest feeling - like my bed was moving or something. :) I felt nauseous and so weird, then I noticed that my belly was moving and contorting hugely. After a while he seemed to settle in again and I got back to sleep. I'm hoping that he finally obeyed my pleas to get into the correct position... I have only had a couple of contractions today. Everything feels really calm. Even though it was a frustrating day at the hospital, I am actually glad for the delay in labor now because K is just not doing well and Dave is with him an hour away. If Malachi can hold off until we get K back to good health and have he and Dave back home with - that would be my choice. As I had stated earlier, K's shunt was checked out and all seemed well initially. Because he continued to vomit while in the ER they admitted him and kept him for observation. The hope was that he would perk up this morning and perhaps be discharged this afternoon. He has not perked up the way any one would have liked. I have talked to Dave on the phone a couple of times this morning and Dave does not sound pleased with the way his little K is acting. K is such a happy, talkative, always singing, giggling kind of a boy. Today it was hard to wake him up and he is just moaning alot and continuing to hold his head and complain that is hurts. We don't know what is going on, but we are so thankful that he is at one of the best Children's hospital's in the state. Dave and K had to share a room with four other sick kids and their families (It was a large room). Fortunately Dave said they did get some sleep. Poor Dave did not sleep much at all while I was in labor Saturday night all night - and now ended up spending the very next night at a hospital as well. I just love him so much and have prayed over and over for strength, rest and sustenance while he tends to our precious little boy! My mother in law spent the night with us last night and is right now picking up some groceries for us. She is very helpful and will be able to be here for us as long as we need. I think my parents will be traveling here from Iowa this weekend. I have several amazing friends who have also made themselves available to us whenever we need. I am very blessed! *Deep breath* God is good. Wow, what would I do without him? I'm glad I don't need to know the answer to that. In the midst of alot of unknowns and unpredictability I feel an immeasurable amount of peace. I can't lie - my frustration level rose to an unhealthy level yesterday. It would not be my choice at all to go about my life dilated almost 7 cm and not knowing when labor may kick in again. It would not be my choice to have Dave away and to have K so sick. But in the midst of all of this God is teaching me SO much. Things like trust, reliance on one so much bigger than me, and the beauty of prayer. Although I do feel peaceful and I am enjoying a very laid back day at home, I have my moments where I feel very emotional. I am just letting the tears fall as they need to. Cuddles and hugs from two little boys are given to me liberally and I could not be more grateful for them.

15 comments:

This Heavenly Life said...

I can't imagine how frustrating all of these things happening at once must have been. Your positive, trusting outlook must help immensely :) Many prayers for K to get better and return home with that tired hubby so you can have a baby soon!

Jenn @ A Country Girl's Ramblings said...

I am praying for you! I can't beging to imagine what you are feeling right now, but wanted to let you know that I will continue in prayer for you, Dave, K, and your whole family.

Amanda said...

okay...so i am a bit hormonal still...and exhausted...but still, your post made me cry. SO much going on...i cannot imagine. and yet, you are so right...God is beyond good...He is beyond faithful...and He is taking care of you. i am reminded that it is not by "accident" that this is all happening at the same time...praying that you will soak yourself in His mercies today...trusting in His faithfulness...clinging to Him. praying for you...for Dave...for K...for kai...for your family who is helping you. wish i could be there to help! much, much love sweet friend@

Katie@The Baby Factory said...

Praying for you all......Thank you for your honesty and vulnerability.
Next time you go to the hospital they'll say 'You're at a 9! Time to push and meet your little guy!' and let me tell you...that's some great birthing, right there :)
Praying for K. God is good.

Katarina said...

*hugs* Praying for you and Dave and K. I cannot imagine what you guys must be going through. Praying that you will erst in God's arms, that His presence will be very very real to all of you today and in the days to come. My His hand be upon K as he fights the infection that is causing him to feel so terrible, for wisdom for the doctors as they determine what is going on, strength for Dave as he stays be K's side and thinks of you at home. Praying for you too, that you may continue to feel His *peace* around you and that there will continue to be people in your life who can help you with the physicals needs.
God is Good and He is in control of even theses frustrating, worrisome days. He is BIGGER than them.

Rachel said...

Oh Wendi, I have been thinking of you and your family a lot this morning. I've been praying that little Malachi would turn...I do hope that's what you experienced in the night! Continuing to pray that God's peace would enfold you, and that K would be feeling better soon. Goodness, your life really is an adventure, isn't it?!?! :) Love you, friend!

Amy@My Front Porch said...

"God is good. Wow, what would I do without him? I'm glad I don't need to know the answer to that."

AMEN! He's with you -- I'll keep praying!

Rachel @ Future Pastor's Wife said...

Amen - He IS bigger, even when our circumstances seem about to swallow us.

Heavenly Father, we give you praise and glory for who You are and we acknowledge You as Creator and Lord of all. We know nothing happens without Your knowledge of it. I pray for this precious family Lord, that You would be their strength and sustenance during this time. I pray for Wendi and her strength and peace, that You would calm her spirit and speak to her and minister to her as she waits to meet Malachi. We pray for sweet little Malachi - we ask Lord that You would reach in and turn Him so that He is in the best position to come into the world and meet the family that have been praying for him for so long. We pray for precious K, that You would heal whatever is ailing him and allow him to return home healthy and whole. We pray for his doctors that are treating him, that you would give them wisdom and compassion. We pray for Dave as he has to step away from his wife to take care of K - strengthen him and build him up during this time. Sustain him supernaturally because he is stretched thin right now. We thank you for his mom and her servant spirit and availability. We pray for her and Jay & Noe and that You would bless their time together as grandmother and grandsons. We pray for a safe and timely delivery of Malachi, and most of all we pray that You would be glorified in all this, which we know will happen because of the heart of Your servant Wendi. Thank You for carrying and protecting Malachi this long, and we give You all the praise and glory. In Jesus name, Amen.

Love you girl! Can't wait to see his sweet little face. *Hugs*

Mama Belle said...

I am in agreement with Rachel's precious prayer. It will be here before you know it. And, I don't have to tell you who's in control.

Colored With Memories said...

i'm agreeing in prayer as well. hang in there!

LouAnn said...

We are praying along with you. I know the frustrations of life as well. It is good now and then to just scream and let the tears flow. It is a great comfort act. Keep trusting God. He is there and taking care of all the things that need to come together for good. I am very proud of how positive you are and shining His light through your words. Love you

jennifer said...

praying for you and baby!

Sarah said...

What an example of trusting God with your baby and K and well, everything! Thanks for sharing and for being so open...it's such a testimony! Really, it is...and it's rare. You've encouraged me today.

creative gal said...

Praying for you. . . God's plan is at work girl.

Rach@In His Hands said...

Wendi, you've had quite the last few days, huh?! Sending up some big prayers today for health and peace and rest for your whole family. Poor little K...I hope he's feeling better today and I cannot wait til sweet M arrives!

You are right on....God is SO good.