One year ago...

A year ago I wrote this. And I entered into a period of grief that left me exhausted and questioning. After living in the shadow of that experience, the light of where we are at right now shines even brighter. I don't ever want to take for granted the miracles that are taking place right here. Right now. Just thanking God over and over today. For what he has done. For what he has held us through. for the times he has calmed the storm. For the times he has let the wind and waves go wild, but held his child. And for what he is doing right now. When I'm sick I often get so grumpy for my lack of health. But does my heart run over with thanksgiving when we are all healthy? Do I acknowledge the one who gives us our health? When Dave and I are not communicating well and not connecting - when things just seem to be going badly in my marriage and I wonder if it will get better, I feel so despondent. But when things turn around and God brings about a wonderful change of heart within both of us, when our eyes sparkle when they meet, when I wonder if it could ever get any sweeter; do I thank the one who designed marriage? When I am in a season of grieving so deep that I don't want to face each new day, when my heart feels like it is filled with bricks, when nothing makes sense - I acknowledge that. Do I acknowledge as intensely the joy of each day I spend growing a precious life? To see where God has brought us in one years time has been an incredible reminder of his faithfulness. Let me never spend more time grieving and complaining as I do rejoicing and bowing down in utter and complete thankfulness.