Monday, April 20, 2009

 Just wonderin'

Have you ever cried... over the movie Nemo... because you could relate so much to daddy Marlin's over protectiveness of his little buddy with the broken fin? Have you ever had one of your babies on your lap, buried your head in their hair and got instantly choked up? Have you ever had a really bad word mild expletive come to the forefront of your mind when you couldn't open your utensil drawer due to some thing being stuck in it? Have you ever prayed over yard sales? Have you ever intensely craved a food for a week, then ate so much of it you got so sick of it you couldn't stand the sight - and then moved on to something else? Have you ever craved verbal affirmation, then became a speechless silly woman with nothing at all graceful or intelligent to say when some one gave it to you? Do you suffer from forgetfulness that sometimes makes other people feel bad? Like - perhaps sending your 7 year old nephew a birthday card with "Congratulations on turning 6!" all over it? Even though if you would've sat down to think about it instead of rushing through you so would've known...? Do you ever look around at your life and wonder how you ever became so blessed? How all of this is yours? What a whirlwind it has all been? Do you sometimes feel 7 or 8 years younger than you actually are? And then see the grey hair and that new line framing the corner of your smile (even when you aren't smiling) and realize that time is still ticking away. Have you ever gotten an idea in your head and gotten SO super excited about it before you calculated the reality factor into it? And then had your husband do that calculating for you, and realize how right he is...how silly you were for ever thinking it was a possibility, but then having the hardest time letting go? (Possibly having some thing to do with a west coast trip next year...maybe?) Do you ever lose your patience with your kids? Over silly things that ultimately do not matter? And then it ends up being an immature power struggle for both of you? Do you ever have to bake? Like, you can't go on doing any thing else until your warm oven is perfecting some delightfuly domestic dish? Do you ever fantasize about taking your lap top to Panera and just sitting there with your lovely mocha and bread bowl of soup having a few hours of uninterupted time to write? Have you ever had a really bad day and gotten unreasonably hung up on what other people think of you? Assuming other people around you don't have so many more important things going on in their life than to analyze you? I didn't think so. But if you have ever done or thought any of those things than know that you are in good company. Probably. I assume some people probably sometimes do those things. Just making some guesses...

17 comments:

Rachel said...

With the exception of the yard sales and Panera (only b/c we don't have a Panera) I have done all these things. :) I'm in the same boat.

And I love your David Crowder song. Sometimes I pull up your page just to listen to it.

Sara@i.Sass said...

My exception is Panera too, firstly I never think to go there. WHy? I'm not sure but I'm thinking Hubby and I should have a lunch date there. They are cozy.
But for me, my "Panera" is getting my nails polished at the little shop by our house. I love that I can sit there and be "touched" in a non-pawing grabbing way and come out feeling pretty. I haven't spilt any polish on the floor or table or couch, I didn't have to talk to any body and I didn't smudge the polish 10 seconds after putting it on because somebody needed to be wiped or a snack!!!
AHHHHH. Now that is something.

Elizabeth said...

I'm glad to know I have company in these things! I was just telling a friend the other day that I think of myself as 26, maybe 25. I'm 31! And I get crazy ideas in my head all the time, until I realize how crazy they are and get sad that they can't happen. At least not when I want them to.

And the last one-I'm sad to say, it happens all the time.

BaronessBlack said...

Yup!
You do, of course, have the excuse of being pregnant! I remember my husband getting really worried about me howling on the phone to him at 20 weeks, only for him to get home and find that I was crying over a TV ad for pet insurance!
I ask you!

Carrie said...

ha ha! how true! You post it so well, and make us all feel good about not being perfect :)

thanks for sharing our thoughts!

Lois Lane II said...

Hooray, I am not alone! ;)

Lily said...

Oh my goodness yes...

jennifer said...

yep.

Debbie said...

Good grief - yes! It's like you are reading my mind!

Rhonda said...

Oh Wendi,

You must go read my latest post!

Love your blog!
~Rhonda

Heather of the EO said...

Of course. They're pretty much all true of me. Since you seem to be some kind of long distance twin and all. :)

Angela said...

I loved this post---very sweet and I related to oh so many on your list.

Chelle said...

Check, check, yep, uh huh, me too, check!

Loved this post Wendi...so much!

I think I might be able to relate a little. Probably.

Jackie @ Our Moments Our Memories said...

Wendi, I am shaking my head over here - how is it possible that you enter my brain on so regular a basis and write exactly what is inside?

The mild expletive thing - yes.

The baking thing - yes.

Feeling 7-8 years younger - yes yes yes.

Craving verbal affirmation? Um - you nailed it.

And the only reason I haven't had the Panera fantasy is...we don't have them here. I know...a travesty.

Oh girl, we are going to have A LOT to talk about if/when we get to meet. I am convinced. If all we discuss is what is in this post, it will make for one glorious afternoon that just flies by.

Hayley said...

I so am with you on Panera, Wendi! I always try not to lust after the lifestyle of sitting curled up on those couches studying; just not having anyone NEED you for a whole day!

And yet, knowing the aching struggle of being alone because of my dearest friend. . . I know I need to be so thankful for the little hands that smudge my white pants (my attempt at chic) and for the phone calls from a man who loves me. . .

because she would give anything to not have time for Panera. It's all about perspective!

Loved this post, Wendi. You need to write a book, you know.

Leslie said...

fantastic post... so much truth in it... and Im so on board with you on so many of these...

Katarina said...

So been there, done that on almost everything in your post. It is nice to know that I am not alone or the only one struggling through some things.