Just wonderin'

Have you ever cried... over the movie Nemo... because you could relate so much to daddy Marlin's over protectiveness of his little buddy with the broken fin? Have you ever had one of your babies on your lap, buried your head in their hair and got instantly choked up? Have you ever had a really bad word mild expletive come to the forefront of your mind when you couldn't open your utensil drawer due to some thing being stuck in it? Have you ever prayed over yard sales? Have you ever intensely craved a food for a week, then ate so much of it you got so sick of it you couldn't stand the sight - and then moved on to something else? Have you ever craved verbal affirmation, then became a speechless silly woman with nothing at all graceful or intelligent to say when some one gave it to you? Do you suffer from forgetfulness that sometimes makes other people feel bad? Like - perhaps sending your 7 year old nephew a birthday card with "Congratulations on turning 6!" all over it? Even though if you would've sat down to think about it instead of rushing through you so would've known...? Do you ever look around at your life and wonder how you ever became so blessed? How all of this is yours? What a whirlwind it has all been? Do you sometimes feel 7 or 8 years younger than you actually are? And then see the grey hair and that new line framing the corner of your smile (even when you aren't smiling) and realize that time is still ticking away. Have you ever gotten an idea in your head and gotten SO super excited about it before you calculated the reality factor into it? And then had your husband do that calculating for you, and realize how right he is...how silly you were for ever thinking it was a possibility, but then having the hardest time letting go? (Possibly having some thing to do with a west coast trip next year...maybe?) Do you ever lose your patience with your kids? Over silly things that ultimately do not matter? And then it ends up being an immature power struggle for both of you? Do you ever have to bake? Like, you can't go on doing any thing else until your warm oven is perfecting some delightfuly domestic dish? Do you ever fantasize about taking your lap top to Panera and just sitting there with your lovely mocha and bread bowl of soup having a few hours of uninterupted time to write? Have you ever had a really bad day and gotten unreasonably hung up on what other people think of you? Assuming other people around you don't have so many more important things going on in their life than to analyze you? I didn't think so. But if you have ever done or thought any of those things than know that you are in good company. Probably. I assume some people probably sometimes do those things. Just making some guesses...