Blessings x 3

My three, I'm pausing to count my blessings. I can not go there with out the three of you immediately coming to mind. You know how our household and schedules seem to be turned upside down a bit while daddy improves things for us? Well, that's kind of hard for mommy. Nap times are scarce, if happening at all and many things have had to be compromised or changed to accommodate our project. We have all embraced a pretty consistent schedule from very early on in your lives. I know these changes are just as different for you all as they are for me. I am so impressed by the way you guys have shown me how grown up you are becoming in the way you are handling the changes which are temporarily affecting our daily living. The way you all played quietly together this morning brought a sweet joy to my heart.

My mastermind Jay, choreographing that little triangle of brothers this afternoon - brilliant and such cuteness! "Hey guys let's make a triangle - Noe, you go there, and K, you lay right here." You crack me up buddy!I'm so very thankful for this pleasant change. You all may be learning this adaptability thing better than your mommy. Your cooperation in the last few days helps me more than you know. Remember how relaxed I was after I was able to clean the house the other day? Well, that was just the main level. Since my bedroom looks like this:

I really struggle to not be overwhelmed with the helplessness. I'm told cleaning it would be futile until this part of the project is over. Mommy has some OCD tendencies, and the lack of control can make her the teeniest bit crazy.

Last week there were a few days where I wasn't sure we were going to do so well with this. I was tired. The three of you seemed to pick up on that quickly. Was it all in my head or were you really plotting against me? Manipulation is definitely a strong point among us. So many moments over the past couple of months have had this way of whittling down my patience until I haven't had alot to give. Remember this? Perhaps some day you two older boys will unlock the secret as to how in the world this happened.

Thank the Lord for over night shipping boys. Even with that, you were both in pretty big trouble.

Speaking of shipping, in my exhaustion I was thrilled to see your enthusiasm over playing in a box filled with packing materials (Thank you Aunt Sarah!). It is great when you all find something simple that entertains you for hours. For a split second I even thought about how convenient it was that you fit so nicely and were comfortably packed...

But no...we may have our moments of frustrations, but through it all you guys mean the world to me. Plus, postage would likely be through the roof, and there are no longer any holes in that lovely roof - let's keep it that way.

Ahh, but the past few days have been full of energy giving moments for me. When you all get a little bit older I hope you will love the uniqueness of each of the four seasons which we are privileged to experience here just as I do. When one season is drawing to a close and another is hinting at it's new beginning there is excitement in the air. I feel it boys. I feel a subtle shifting of seasons. The baby stage was bursting with miraculous moments. Moments that will forever be engraved upon my heart. It also held sleeplessness and complete dependence in it's bag of goodies. I do realize that each stage I go through with you guys will hold it's very own set of challenges. Regardless, I am excitedly anticipating this transformation.

I am seeing some breakthroughs in the obedience department. Even the littlest glimmer is enough to give so much hope. Hope that perhaps...maybe we are doing a couple of things right... :) You are each, in your own ways and at your own pace, beginning to seek the one who created you. I love to hear your heartfelt efforts at offering your own little prayers. I can see you each listening more and more. Whether you choose to take to heart what daddy and I are saying to you and actually apply it seems to depend upon the moment.

My little Noe, imagine my surprise when you began to have an interest in the potty last week. The highchair will be going to the basement soon. You are mastering the art of utensils - all on your own! I knew this would all happen, but so soon? It is with bittersweet emotions that I observe all of this. So much more sweet than bitter.

Thank you all for being what you are to me. My students, my teachers, my cuddlers, my crazy ones, and always always - my babies. Sorry, it's just the way it is.