Still here...

Just tired. Like really really tired. Hit the wall tired. And it is a big, thick, impenetrable wall. Yes it was only a couple of short weeks ago that I was reporting an adrenaline high. I had energy. I knew it wouldn't last. I could see the wall in the distance. At least I expected it, that does help. :)
Last week was the first full week I had all three boys home all day. Every day. My darling sweet little boys. My energy was drained by mid week. It's funny because K is not a super high maintenance guy, and he was only gone for morning preschool each day. So why does having him home all day make such an enormous difference?! I don't know. What I do know is that I need to find enough energy to do some very intentional parenting, set out to incorperate a schedule and lay down some rules to make this summer go a little bit more smoothly than last week went.

I did experience some refreshment yesterday morning, but it was only a temporary reprieve from the wall of exhaustion. I got my hair cut and highlighted - which is always a nice treat (I took the scary plunge and went for blonde highlights and bangs). While I was gone my husband was trying to prove he was super dad or something, because he took a 13 mile bike ride with all three boys. Yes, all of them! We have the cart thing that goes behind his bicycle, which two ride in, then we recently purchased a child bike seat that is installed in front of Dave's seat. So, he took over 100 pounds in kiddos with him on his bike ride. He amazes me! After a quick bite to eat at home we went to a graduation party, then took our guys to a park. It was a great day, but the wall followed me every where I went!

This morning I had nursery duty at church. A couple of other women and I were in charge of 11 children under the age of 2 in nursery today. Whew! Of course my Noe decided that if he wasn't attached to me the entire hour and a half he was going to just melt into a puddle of nothingness, so he set out to let me know unattachment would not be tolerated. Upon finishing up my duties there, we loaded every one up, headed home and each of my dear sweet boys (just the 3 young ones, Dave was pretty well behaved) decided that melt down time had arrived. In unison they began their chorus of high pitched screams. Perhaps they have all hit their own exhaustion wall... They do not do well when they are tired. They are all in their beds now. I do not think they are all asleep, but they will stay in their beds for at least an hour. Mama needs a nap. Really badly! My sticky floors and cluttered table will just have to wait. I will try to compose some at least partially coherent posts this week. At the moment I fear that simply keeping up with the necessities of life is a big enough hill to climb. I'm sure after a nap all will look brighter and less intimidating. :)