Made adequate through Him

"I lift up my eyes to the hills- where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth." Psalm 121: 1&2

"It was good for me to be afflicted so that I might learn your decrees. The law from your mouth is more precious to me than thousands of pieces of silver and gold." Psalm 119:71&72

God, my shepherd! I don't need a thing. You have bedded me down in lush meadows, you find me quiet pools to drink from. true to your word, you let me catch my breath and send me in the right direction. You revive my drooping head; my cup brims with blessing. Your beauty and love chase after me every day of my life. I'm back home in the house of God." Psalm 23 1-3, 5 & 6

And He said: It's not about you Wendi. Your life isn't about what you can and can't do, how you feel, what others say about you, how they perceive you, or even how you perceive yourself. It's about how much of me they can see through you. Move your focus upward.

And He, again, was the farthest thing from condemning you could imagine. And He really understood, like got where I was at. He knew I would be there. He knew it was okay to be there. He used my being there to show me some really important things that I would not have learned had I not been there. And then He invited me to move on from there. He brought me into a group of people who love Him. He provided songs with complimentary music that reached into my soul and filled me up. One of those songs spoke of "The King of all sufficiency, The King of all of me." He whispered to my heart that He is my Heavenly Father. All I need. - That He will never leave me. He gave me all of you. He used your words to touch me deeply.

Finding the sufficiency in who he has made me to be. Moving my focus upward rather than outward. Loving the companionship of knowing I'm not the only one who struggles with inadequacy. The lessons I learned over the weekend are not a done deal. It is a process, but I am that much further in the process. :)

So thankful for my friends... Amazing...really truly humbled and amazed.

So thankful for my family. Nobody could stay down for too long when this group of handsome guys loves them, nurtures them, needs them, and has numerous hugs and cuddles for them daily. :)

So, here I am people. Authenticity is not an easy thing, but I've been able to share some of the realness that invades my daily life. Balancing on that tight rope that is striving for betterment and yet being comfortable in who I am.
Make up completely wore off and hair messed up from nap (Oh how I needed that nap!), here is someone who is learning more each day about what it means to be real. :)