Our weekend was bad.
And yet it was just filled with love and laughter. Because we have a big God and a good God. And some times, really, you just have to laugh.
Things kicked off on Friday with a doctor appointment that confirmed our suspicions that Jay will need his first surgery. Ear tubes, tonsillectomy, and adenoids out. Not a real significant surgery, but he is my kid, has had no surgeries, and I am not jumping up and down excited about it.
Next was the camper. Ohhhh the camper...
We have totally outgrown our pop up camper. Believe me, when you try to stick 6 people and all of the needed "stuff" for a vacation in a pop up camper that you have outgrown - home sounds better and better and vacation no longer fulfills its definition.
So, we started looking. And shopping. And getting excited, since we leave in less than a month for a very anticipated week long vacation. We thought we found "the one". It sold before we got to it. We found another one. It was pouring down rain when we went to look at it, so we weren't able to do a real thorough check of everything. On the outset though, it looked great. In reality... not so much. What we didn't know, and we are pretty convinced that the sellers did not know either, is that this "great" travel trailer had a leak, and water damage under the carpet. As it ends up, alot of water damage under the carpet.
Saturday morning we wake up to K experiencing a painful migraine. As we tend to him, we deal with the disappointment of having bought a "project" (and ya'll know how much we needed another project right now...). We process all that planning another surgery entails. And then... our cat dies.
I know, right?
We have alot of cats that roam around our place. We have a big ol' farm, so they kind of come and go as they please. We aren't really the type to spend alot of $ on these cats. Often the males end up going off on their own eventually anyway. BUT, we made an exception with one of our cats, because she had kittens. She was having some health issues...that were pretty obvious. I'll spare you the details. She had surgery last week. We paid. The issues came back Saturday morning. We called the vet. It became apparent that all that could be done had been done.
So, she was put down.
All of this happened in like, a twelve hour time period.
So we threw our hands in the air, tried to laugh through our tears,
left the house,
and the camper...
And we went to the zoo.
We held tightly to one another.
We had the privilege of petting two humongous snakes.
We fed giraffes.
...And we truly counted it a gift that we have each other; a family intact and in love.
That's worth more than I can even begin to articulate right now.
The imprint that this past weekend has left in my heart is not a dwindling back account with not alot to show for it.
It is not a dead cat.
It isn't migraines and surgeries.
It is the love that surrounded us.
It is the way that God surprised us with glimpses of hope in the midst of alot of yuck.
It is little boys who say, "we still have kittens!" in response to our "family talk".
It is a husband who takes my face in his hands and looks past the tears, into my eyes. He felt disappointment most keenly about our less than perfect purchase, but then he pulled his shoulders back, put his chin up, and made a plan to seal and renovate our camper. You better believe that little traveling home of ours is going to be beautiful and enjoyed over and over after we finish!
It is an imprint of not allowing circumstances to dictate our disposition.
I can't lie, there is still "stuff" that we are working through as this new week starts, but the smiles are intact. And for that I am thankful. So very, very thankful.