Embracing good

Those days happen.

Days when headaches hit mercilessly.

Simply functioning seems to be pushing it.

Questions hover. The same questions you thought were put to rest long ago.

The ride is going too fast and it is making you sick to your stomach.

You wonder who you really are. Underneath all of those layers. 

Layers of circumstance.

Layers of trying.

Striving for perfection and beyond.


But who are you?


And where did all this dirty laundry come from?

And who are all those small people calling you mama?

Where is your heart, and what truly matters?


Ever been there?

Yeah, God has been getting my attention in several different ways lately.

{Per my usual} I am learning so much. -And there is so much more that needs to be gleaned.


Making choices.

Choices to shed the layers.

Accept refreshment in the form of rest.

Loose control. Because I never had it in the first place, but I am addicted to the delusion that it is grasped tightly in my grip.

Breathe.

Be.

Let this golden sunlight of longer days whisper its promises of blooming and warmth.

Extradite the fear.

Open my eyes to vibrance and rarely noticed treasures.

Step back.

Realign.

Fill my lungs deeply with all that is good and beneficial.

Growing pains... exhilarating...stinging...wonderful.