Monday, March 14, 2011

 Embracing good

Those days happen.

Days when headaches hit mercilessly.

Simply functioning seems to be pushing it.

Questions hover. The same questions you thought were put to rest long ago.

The ride is going too fast and it is making you sick to your stomach.

You wonder who you really are. Underneath all of those layers. 

Layers of circumstance.

Layers of trying.

Striving for perfection and beyond.


But who are you?


And where did all this dirty laundry come from?

And who are all those small people calling you mama?

Where is your heart, and what truly matters?


Ever been there?

Yeah, God has been getting my attention in several different ways lately.

{Per my usual} I am learning so much. -And there is so much more that needs to be gleaned.


Making choices.

Choices to shed the layers.

Accept refreshment in the form of rest.

Loose control. Because I never had it in the first place, but I am addicted to the delusion that it is grasped tightly in my grip.

Breathe.

Be.

Let this golden sunlight of longer days whisper its promises of blooming and warmth.

Extradite the fear.

Open my eyes to vibrance and rarely noticed treasures.



Step back.

Realign.

Fill my lungs deeply with all that is good and beneficial.

Growing pains... exhilarating...stinging...wonderful.

10 comments:

Dana Dawn Calverette said...

Thank you for your post today. I relate.

Nikki said...

Love your perspective...thank you.

Kristen said...

Oh yeah! Been there. Am there currently.

Kristen said...

I just realized I haven't been to your 365 photo a day blog for awhile. I'm excited to jump over there and have a whole eye gazing feast as I catch up.

Penny said...

What an awesome picture. =)

We never stop growing, do we? We think we've learned something, and then God shows us how much more we have to learn. It's kind of intimidating, but it's so nice to know that He's there to guide us.

Megan said...

Spoken like a true mother. Wife. Overwhelming days can creep up on us. But God is always right there to remind us of His glorious creations!!

Sara said...

"Loose control. Because I never had it in the first place, but I am addicted to the delusion that it is grasped tightly in my grip."
I am learning this exact lesson dear friend, oh is this family learning this right now.

Katarina said...

Such beautiful, true words.

Amy@My Front Porch said...

Growing pains...that's the perfect way to sum up my life right now...

Amanda said...

I have those thoughts every couple days. I think about if I'm on the right path and if I'm doing what God wants me to do. But then I pray and think that instead of thinking myself like I do all the time, I think about God and try to let Him take over since he's the one who is in charge anyway.