Saturday, October 23, 2010

 He took his naughty pills today

What am I learning these days?

So glad you asked. Because there is alot. A l o t.


Ministry: It's really hard sometimes.

I desperately want to help the women who come in to the crisis pregnancy center where I work.

So much is out of my control when they leave the building.

I want to take them home with me.

I want to make choices for them.

I can't.

I'm a seed planter.

Sometimes that is really, really hard.



Mommy-ing: It's an effort to keep my cool sometimes.

Like when his pretty artwork was created with those "bell stickers" ... that cost .44 a piece.

Like when stubbornness and disrespect seem to be inseparable buddies who don't want to leave the premises.

Like when a one year old begins methodically emptying every drawer, every trash bin, and every cupboard he can get his little hands on.

One minute I am cleaning up a mess, and I turn my back to find 5 more made.

Wow, wow, wow. This happened over night and it's pretty constant.

Every one of the boys went through this stage - and now I remember it!


Mommy-ing special needs: Every benefit has a draw back.

So, we put K on a new medication for his migraines. It is a  very common migraine preventative medication.

His migraines have been coming every two weeks, in a rather predictable pattern.

So far he is migraine free.

But...

The side effects are undesirable (understatement).

He is aggressive.

He has lost most of his appetite.

He is sleepy.

His attention span is extremely short.

After some phone calls and research, I found out that these are all very common, very expected side effects, especially in children.

The aggression has shown up at school.

He has swung at his teachers, like he is going to hit them, when he doesn't want to do something. 

He has thrown huge kicking fits in the parking lot.

He is flat out refusing to do things.

I cried when I experienced some of this, and heard about some of it.

I used to joke, when the kids were naughty, that they must have taken their "naughty pills".

Now that is pretty much reality.

I have to say, I seriously cringe every time I give him this medication.

But he is migraine free.

We are giving it a fair shot.

It's only been ten days.

His body hasn't had time to adjust fully yet.

We are shooting for a month, and then we will reevaluate.



Being a wife: What a privilege.

Especially this week - I do not know what I would do with out him.

Really - sometimes I just feel bad for him.

He has to deal with a woman who has rather unpredictable and very strong emotions (that's putting it pretty kindly people). -And he does it with such grace.

The way that he balances me, encourages me, and challenges me to grow is a gift.


Friendship: I need it more than I ever thought I did.

God has placed particular people in my life right now so graciously and for a reason.

He knows what I need and I am immeasurably thankful.


Fashion: Embracing skinny jeans and leggings.

I dabbled a bit in leggings a couple of years ago - but it seemed too weird. I was born in the 80s. Why go back?

I'll tell you why: They are SO comfortable!

And given the fact that you are wearing them correctly (ie - the right size paired with correct style and length of shirtage is oh so important...) they can be super cute!

I am shopping for the perfect boots right now.

I have gone to several different stores pricing and looking.

I'm thinking flat - slouchy - perhaps a buckle or two, and of course - worn with skinny jeans, maybe even skirts. Color is still up in the air.

Don't worry - I will fully report on the verdict when I find them. Perhaps even a little photo documentation.

Also, Highlights and lowlights can do alot for a person trying to grow their hair out and resist the urge to chop it.

Earth shattering stuff - I know!


Hobbies: They are a special part of who I am and how I am growing.

When I have my camera in my hand I feel so energized. I don't really know how else to explain it.

I am hoping to shoot a few family pictures for friends and design some Christmas cards.

The thought of that is both intimidating and incredibly exciting to me.

Writing is still one of my favorite ways to process things.

I love this outlet.


And there you have it.

Me.

Right now.

Kind of scattered.

Very real.

11 comments:

BARBIE said...

I absolutely love this. I appreciate your realness. I will be praying that K's body comes into alignment and that these symptoms he is experiencing due to the medication will subside. Praying strength and grace over you my friend.

Megan said...

Praying for K!! Poor baby! And your mischievious 1 year old? I have an almost three year old who STILL does those things! It is almost impossible to keep up! Good luck! (I am sure the new boots will help a little!)

Katarina said...

Praying for you and your family as you adjust to the meds with K, that cannot be easy!
Have I mentioned before that I love your honesty and graciousness when you write? Because I do.

une autre mère said...

Wow. You are one incredible mama. How terrible for K and you that his medication is causing such problems! But what a relief for his migraines to be gone. I'll pray that the side effects will stop.

I have been shopping for my first pair of skinny jeans... I would've gotten some last year, but hubby wasn't fully on board. I have yet to find the perfect pair, but you have given me more motivation to look harder! :) Not sure if I'll cross the leggings bridge yet. But I love them on *other* people. ;) Can't wait to see your boots!!

Heather of the EO said...

oh, the irony of the naughty pill.

so much constant learning in life. It's easy to feel totally inept, huh? But you're amazing. You really are.

Anne Elizabeth said...

Wendi- You are such an amazing mom! I admire you for doing ministry work on top of being a wife and mom. I don't know how you do it. I've wanted to do some volunteer work at our pregnancy center, but I haven't found a way to make it work with my kiddos.

I can't wait to see what boots you get! I love fashion, but lately my style could be called "frumpy" at best. I want to get some skinny jeans, leggings and boots too.

Praying hard for K, and that you will have wisdom about how to treat his migraines. I get really bad migraines, so I feel for him. Have you found that certain foods can trigger them? I don't know why I get mine, but sometimes certain foods will make them worse.

Ditto to the one year old! Mine opened the cabinet (that was child proof) and spilled floor cleaner all over my floor. I constantly have to watch him, because he gets into EVERYTHING.

Amanda said...

oh wendi..praying for k...and totally get you on the one year old who dumps every drawer, cabinet, toy bin (or anything really) in sight. eek!

Nikki said...

Love your honesty and how you show us your heart here. Praying for your family, especially K's new medication!

photomama said...

I am there with you on many of these topics and its soooo nice to know I am not alone. My 1 year old has learned how to climb up chairs and push them wher she wants to get too:(
have a great day and thanks for the encouragement through your faith.

Rachel said...

Love the honesty of this post so much! Thanks for giving us a glimpse into your heart and life :)

About the meds...I just got thinking that when I was on that one and it made me all loopy, they had me cut way back on the dose at first and then slowly build up, and doing it that way I was okay and I got up to the same dosage and then was okay. I don't know if that might be a possibility with him...just an idea. I'm so sorry he is having those side effects. I am sure it is hard seeing him act not like himself :( Praying you are able to get it figured out and still keep him migraine free!

the_blissful_mommy said...

Your reality is so tanglible in your words, Wendi, and you are so dear to me. xoxox