Friday, January 8, 2010

 The unexpected in motherhood

I hate the not knowing. And the worries. I know I should just be infinitely grateful that he is here. Just that he is here. This week of all weeks... It's a little bit more emotional than most. And this week some things are happening that feel so out of my control. There are alot of things that have surprised me since I have become a mom. So many things that are really different than what my expectations of motherhood were. Some really, really good. Some just...well, different . Like I never thought that I would have to learn to look for the signs of a seizure in my little boy. I never knew I would have to learn to hold a child close while he was having a seizure. Learn to calm my beating heart, and gently tell him everything is going to be okay. Just hold him until it is over and then watch him as he enters that deep sleep. I'm beginning to know it all well now. What will happen and how to handle it. I know it too well. Because I want to scream that this is NOT okay. This is not what being a mom is all about, is it? Or is it. Is being a mom really less about our expectations of chubby grins and little people kisses and more about a deep love that is willing to go places we never thought we would venture? Is it about flexibility and adapting to some very unique situations? We all have them - circumstances that we never expected. And I believe true motherhood has alot to do with the unexpected. The things our kids teach us. The places they have brought us and the ways they teach US to grow.

11 comments:

Katie@The Baby Factory said...

Wendi-you know more about what a Mother's love looks like than most women that I know.
Thank you for posting this.
Praying for you.

Katarina said...

Wow... you're right. Motherhood has a lot to do with the unexpected, that love that reaches past everything, the unique situations.
I love 'watching' you mother your children, I learn from you, about sacrifice and dedication and trusting God even when it is hard, thank you for this post.

Redhead Mommy said...

You have no idea how much I needed to be reminded of this! Thank you!

Amy@My Front Porch said...

Your boys are lucky to have a mom like you. Not all women would handle your situation the way you do!

Praying for you!

Elizabeth said...

So much of motherhood is about letting go of our expectations and letting God do a good work in us. Beautiful post from a beautiful mama's heart.

Stacey said...

You are right. You are doing a great job. Keep rolling with all that life throws you!

Amanda said...

amazingly put wendi...and isn't God gracious to meet us in the unexpected. love you friend.

Sarah@Life in the Parsonage said...

"Is being a mom really less about our expectations of chubby grins and little people kisses and more about a deep love that is willing to go places we never thought we would venture?"

Love that Wendi...so absolutely true.

Redhead Mommy said...

Wanted you to know I quoted you in my blog today. Hope you don't mind. And, of course, I linked it back here!

J A Y S said...

wow! never really thought about this before , but this opened up my mind to a lot of things .. your kids are adorable by the way , and they're blessed to have such a great mother like you :)

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