Tuesday, November 3, 2009

 Someday...

Someday I am going to look in the mirror and I won't see dark circles surrounding my eyes. Someday baby spit up will not be a permanent accessory to each outfit. Someday regular showers will once again be a part of my daily routine. Someday I will be aware of what day of the week it is, what time it is, when I fed the kids last, when I last ate and what I had. Someday I will not be blinking tears away at commercials, songs, random moments, guilt, love, sweetness, and overwhelmedness. Someday though - someday I won't have the privilege of cuddling newborn softness and sweetness whenever I want to. I won't hear those little new born sounds. I might be a little more together (maybe...) but it's such a trade off. Why couldn't we relish the sweetness of our days of mothering a newborn while we are alert, aware, rested, and (some what) put together? Just like so many other things in this life - their is an upside and downside to everything. Benefits and drawbacks. Never perfection. Because it is this life. On this earth. So, with bags and dark circles under my eyes I will breathe in the perfection of this new life. I may not know what day it is or when I last ate, but in the midst of this foggy season I am determined to enjoy every sleepy moment.

6 comments:

kt mac said...

you are beautiful Wendi - you know that!

outside and in and you have such a sweet way with expressing what is in your heart - I very much love that about you :)

Katarina said...

It is exciting to see that even in your sleep deprived state, that you are enjoying the wonderful new life God has blessed your family with. Praying that He will give you the est and strength you need on a daily basis.

Katie@The Baby Factory said...

you did nail it, wendi...i can't tell you the last time i wore makeup on a weekday :)

Amy@My Front Porch said...

I was just thinking the other day...how I wished away some of those tired bags under the eyes not knowing when I last ate days and now I'd give anything to have Lily snuggle against my chest and sleep the way she used to!

Beth@playinwiththepaulsens! said...

I read all your posts, but almost never comment. but this one... ugh! how awesome is this post! well written and amazing!
thanks.

Stacey said...

It's all worth it!! You definitely have a way with words!!! Can't wait to see your book someday...