Someday...

Someday I am going to look in the mirror and I won't see dark circles surrounding my eyes. Someday baby spit up will not be a permanent accessory to each outfit. Someday regular showers will once again be a part of my daily routine. Someday I will be aware of what day of the week it is, what time it is, when I fed the kids last, when I last ate and what I had. Someday I will not be blinking tears away at commercials, songs, random moments, guilt, love, sweetness, and overwhelmedness. Someday though - someday I won't have the privilege of cuddling newborn softness and sweetness whenever I want to. I won't hear those little new born sounds. I might be a little more together (maybe...) but it's such a trade off. Why couldn't we relish the sweetness of our days of mothering a newborn while we are alert, aware, rested, and (some what) put together? Just like so many other things in this life - their is an upside and downside to everything. Benefits and drawbacks. Never perfection. Because it is this life. On this earth. So, with bags and dark circles under my eyes I will breathe in the perfection of this new life. I may not know what day it is or when I last ate, but in the midst of this foggy season I am determined to enjoy every sleepy moment.