{And she starts to feel human again}

I can watch Halmark commercials and only get misty eyes now instead of experiencing the ugly cry. Oh yes my friends - I am now 4 weeks post partum and starting, starting, to feel normal- ish again. YAY! I can not tell you how thrilling this is. We have good nights and bad nights. After a bad night I would beg to differ with the above statement, but last night was the best night we have had yet. Kai went a five hour stretch between nursing and it was wondrous for me. The night before was horrible. Awful. I was up nearly all night. Kai was spitting up like a fountain. Over the course of 8 hours he went through 3 outfits and I went through 2. He was gagging, choking, sputtering, and spitting. I have now taken all dairy out of my diet among other things. He seems to be doing better. I don't know yet what all is bothering him, but I am going through the process of finding out. Kinda limits me - but it must be done. Dave has been so sweet as he watches me go through some of these rough nights. Tuesday afternoon he said was "mine" - to do whatever I wanted. So, of course, I went shopping. And it has been forever since I have done a little fun shopping for me. I got a great new sweater, which incidentally matches Kai's pants in the pictures below, and dark denim jeans, New clothes just make me feel a little more "together" than I have in a while. Yesterday, while Dave was at work, he called his mom and asked if she could come over to the house so I could take a nap. Heavenly! And This little one continues to capture our hearts daily. Four weeks old and 9 lbs. 3 oz. He gained 12 ounces in one week. Oh my. Nice to know all that projectile spitting up is not affecting his growth. I continue to be very infatuated with theses little feet... And loving the little bit of sanity that is returning to our lives...